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Name: Uv
Birthday: 6/20/1987
Gender: Female
Interests: Interests: Singing, Listening To Music, Talking On The Phone, Helping People With Their Problems, Swimming, The Comedy Channel, Dancing (Dirty Dancing :P ), Chatting, Fishing, Reading & Writing Poetry, Watching OSU (Ohio State University) Football On T.V.
TV Shows I Watch:South Park, 7th Heaven, Buffy The Vampire Slayer, Angel &, Simple Life, 8 Simple Rules For Dating My Teenage Daughter,Charmed, & My Wife & Kids
Music I Like: Emo, Rock, Country, Pop, Dance/Techno, Punk, Rock Opera (Ex: Meatloaf), Metal, Top 40, & Foreign Music
Movies I Like: Romeo & Juliet, Crazy/Beautiful, Pearl Harbor, Dominion (The Prequel To The Exorcist, Excorcist-The Beginning, Exorcist 1,2, & 3, The Day After Tomorrow, Titanic, Constantine, 13 Going On 30, Dominion (The Prequel To The Exorcist), A Walk To Remember, Sixth Sense, & The Ring 1 & 2
Expertise: Writing Poetry & Fishing
Occupation: Unemployed At The Moment
Industry: -
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  emosweetie4u
MSN: emo_sweetie4u@hotmail.com
Yahoo:  emo_sweetie4u
Member Since:
4/26/2004
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| Let's
see here. So, now matter what I do to try and make myself happy, it
doesn't work. The outcome? Me becoming someone I'm not. Why should I
lie and put on the mask that I'm happy, when in reality, I'm not? Why
should I lie to myself? This "faking" emotion that I have, only lasts
for a short period of time. I'm worried about these pre-cancerous
cells I have. I feel like I'm lonely, tired, and no one seems to care
but my boyfriend Gary. Hell, I've even doubted that at times, too. No
one understands that this could be the last time I ever get to do
anything, that this could become cancer at any time and spread
throughout my cervix and the rest of my body, and I never be able to
have kids. My mother had the same thing and they weren't sure why she
couldn't carry them full term before and after my sister and I were
born. I would bet you $5 that it was because of the dysplasia. Sure,
some will say I'm overreacting and I'm too young to be thinking about
starting a family and having kids, but you know what? It's reality.
It's what COULD happen. But does anyone see it this way? No! They
don't take it into consideration and they don't sympathize with me. If
your sympathy ain't real and you don't mean it from your heart, I don't
want it. It hurts when your family treats you like shit at a time like
this and when everyone around you just acts like your another punching
bag that they can use whenever they want. I don't feel like eating or
do anything any more. All I want is to crawl up in a hole and die, for
everyone to just leave me alone and possibley let me die in peace. No
one comes to see me any more, they don't bother to call, they don't
send me e-mails or IMs and they do't even bother to mail me, either.
Every time I try to go out and try to make myself feel better, my plans
get ruined and crashed by everyone. The only person I have right now
is Gary and for that, I'm greatfully thankful. I don't know how he
puts up with me at times, but he does in a way that I don't think I'll
ever comprehend. I love you Gary, I really do!
I'M TIRED, SICK, LONELY, AND IN GREAT DESPAIR!!! DOES ANYONE CARE?!?
Feeling Sad and Alone,
~*Uvernona*~ | | |
| So, let's see here. What's new? Nothing really. I'm awaiting January so I can fill out my FASFA form and get my ass in college. I've decided that I'm probably goin' to be goin' over the internet.
Other than that, I have a great boyfriend and things are startin' to look up for me. As for my family situation, that's not gettin' any better. Oh well. Life can't be perfect, right?
Well, I'm goin' to go. Leave lot's of comments.
~*Uvernona*~
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| Well, my life has changed a lot since the last time that I had written in here. I have a new boyfriend and he loves me to pieces. He doesn't try to change me and loves me just the way I am. For that, I would like to thank him. Right now, he's living in Dover but may live in Cambridge once he finds out if he gets this job he's wanting today at his interview. I'd say he'll probably get it considering that he has all that military experience behind him. God, do I love being around him. I'm able to be myself and act however I want to. There's nothing that I would change about him. I 'truely' love him to pieces. He's the one in the Gray t-shirt and I'm the one in the dark blue shirt, sitting behind him at a friend's house, in the new pic that's up. 
I had some test results to come back that says that my cells are slightly abnormal and that there's a possibility that they may be cancerous. I go for a biopsy in the beginning of Oct. for it. 
The rest of my life, well, that's just personal and I'll keep it to myself. No one needs to know what else is goin' on. It's for me to know and for me to tell you if I want you to know.
Oh yeah, and about that smart, rude, and crude comment on my last entry, FUCK OFF, bitch. You've always been a fuckin' thorn in my side. If you would grow up, be mature, you wouldn't have to worry about the situation you're in right now. You'd be able to find a good man that has his life together. All I've got to say about your relationship with Mike is that it's bound to be a divorce soon or later. Don't even start talkin' 'bout my ex 'cause he doesn't belong in this. That's the past and this is the present, goin' to be the future. Everyone goes at their own pace at things. You must think that living here on earth, is a race, to see who can do what the fastest and whose got the best things. Honey, it isn't like that. By the way, thanks for calling me a Drama Queen!!!! That's the way I like it, bitch!!!! Wh00t!!!!
With an X and an O, this hottie's out like...
Whoa!!!
~*Uvernona*~
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| Well, well, well. Lookie here. Where am I in life, now that I'm graduated? I'm no where. I don't have a job, I can't drive, I have no place to save up money, and I don't even have my boyfriend any more. I was so sure it was meant to be, but f*** it. When the time comes, the time comes. I'm tired of waiting though. I know that once I get my life together, I'll be able to settle down. Here's an equation:
waiting
+
time
+
me
=
doesn't mix too well
Grr...life is full of nothing but time. Hell, I'm not even sure what I want to do in college any more. I was wanting to go into the Mental Health/Human Services field of a science, but then I changed my mind, I think. I may just go to a place that'll certify me for a certain trade. There's no way I could afford college. I don't want to be in debt because of it. I have too much pride to barrow large sums of money from ANYONE and I mean ANYONE. My ex offered to give me about $1,000 just to get on my feet here, but like I said, I have too much pride. I won't accept it. I'll make it some how, but as stated before...it's just a matter of time.
Love...what does it mean? Well, in the dictionary, here's what I got:
love: (v) n. - A
deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude toward a
person, such as that arising from kinship, recognition of attractive
qualities, or a sense of underlying
oneness.
- A feeling of intense desire and attraction toward a person with
whom one is disposed to make a pair; the emotion of sex and romance.
- Sexual passion.
- Sexual intercourse.
- A love affair.
- An intense emotional attachment, as for a pet or treasured object.
- A person who is the object of deep or intense affection or attraction; beloved. Often used as a term of endearment.
- An expression of one's affection: Send him my love.
- A strong predilection or enthusiasm: a love of language.
- The object of such an enthusiasm: The outdoors is her greatest love.
- Love Mythology. Eros or Cupid.
- often Love Christianity. Charity.
- Sports. A zero score in tennis.
v. loved, lov·ing, loves v. tr.- To have a deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude toward (a person): We love our parents. I love my friends.
- To have a feeling of intense desire and attraction toward (a person).
- To have an intense emotional attachment to: loves his house.
- To embrace or caress.
- To have sexual intercourse with.
- To like or desire enthusiastically: loves swimming.
- Theology. To have charity for.
- To thrive on; need: The cactus loves hot, dry air.
Now, let's look at a bible verse about love...
"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it
is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily
angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil
but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always
hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails."
Let's see if I have love. I'm patient, at times-check, I'm kind when someone doesn't bug me-check, I don't envy anyone-check, I don't boast-check, I'm not proud-check, I'm not rude-check, I'm not self-seeking-check, I'm easily angered-but I'm dealing with that, I don't keep any records of wrongs-check, I don't delight in evil but rejoice in the truth-check, I always protect, trust, hope, persevere, nor fail-check.
Let's take a look and see what perseveres means:
per·se·vere: (pûrs-vîr)
intr.v. per·se·vered, per·se·ver·ing, per·se·veres - To persist in or remain constant to a purpose, idea, or task in the face of
obstacles or discouragement.
So, if we have "true love", we'll persevere through, meaning no matter what stands in our way, we'll fight for it 'til the end.
So, if what I have is love and everyone wants love, why do they always take an advantage of me and my so called "love"? It gets tiresome. When can I find someone that has "true love" for me back? That's willing to give it back and so I can love them back, aswell? Sure, I've had my ups and downs, and I've made my mistakes, but why can't people see past them and see what's real inside of me? What's real, you ask? Love...all I have to offer is love in life. That's it. Nothing more. I'm tired of having to fit up to everyone's expectations so that I can feel their love. Can't you (they) just love me for me and the way I am?!?!?
Well, I'm going to go now. I believe I'm done ranting.
Mucho Amor De Ohio,
~*Uvernona*~
Holding Out For A Hero
Where have all the good men gone
And where are all the gods?
Where's the street-wise Hercules
To fight the rising odds?
Isn't there a white knight upon a fiery steed?
Late at night toss and turn and dream of what I need
(Chorus)
I need a hero
I'm holding out for a hero 'til the end of the night
He's gotta be strong
And he's gotta be fast
And he's gotta be fresh from the fight
I need a hero
I'm holding out for a hero 'til the morning light
He's gotta be sure
And it's gotta be soon
And he's gotta be larger than life
Somewhere after midnight
In my wildest fantasy
Somewhere just beyond my reach
There's someone reaching back for me
Racing on the thunder and rising with the heat
It's gonna take a superman to sweep me off my feet
(Chorus)
Up where the mountains meet the heavens above
Out where the lightning splits the sea
I would swear that there's someone somewhere
Watching me
Through the wind and the chill and the rain
And the storm and the flood
I can feel his approach
Like the fire in my blood
(Chorus)
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| Wh00000000t! I'm officially 19 today! Happy birthday to me, happy birthday to me, happy birthday dear uvernona, happy birthday to me. And many more on channel 4 and scooby doo and scrappy too and a big fat strippin' lady on channel 80 and all the rest on cartoon network. lol I've made it 19 years of my life. I didn't think I'd make it past this year, but I did. Thank you, Jesus!!
~*Uvernona*~
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